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Jekkyl & Hyde

I think that my current mood is probably stressed. We had a meeting today in order to get our volunteer program off the ground. The plan was to flesh out the differences between a volunteer and a facilitator. I did my best, and Sandy and Terri both agreed with everything that I had. We now have example forms and some example guidelines for volunteers. We don’t have much for facilitators yet.

I guess the part that’s stressing me is the fact that there’s so much to think about. It’s quite overwhelming. We decide one thing, and then we think about another situation for another type of volunteer and have to discuss that volunteer’s expectations. Then something else comes up. It feels like the thinking is all over the map at this point. There’s so many things to consider that it’s hard to know if everything’s done. I worry about forgetting something, because it could endanger someone or upset someone in the long run.

The current hangup is boundary issues. What kind of relationship does a volunteer have with the youth? What’s permissable? How is it different from the facilitator’s relatively closed relationship? Just how closed must a facilitator be? What are the limits of time that a volunteer must wait to work with a group? Is that different from a facilitator?

There are a million questions, and answering one wrong could cause serious damage. I know that we’ll continue to push forward. All we can do is our best and learn from our mistakes. Anything is better than what we have now, but what if something we forget could have prevented engdangerment of a youth?

There’s always that darker side to the issue. I suppose it’s something that must be overlooked. Nothing is going to be perfect, so letting it bother me won’t help. Simply being aware of the consequences is all I should be as worrying will do no better.

Then there’s school.

Mission complete! My hair is now cut. I am glad to have it finally done. It was five inches long. That’s what working thirteen days in a row at all hours of the day after already delaying a haircut will do. Suddenly you’re scrambling to get ready for classes to start and you don’t get your hair cut. Good thing it’s cut now. Yep.

I saw Luke on Friday night. I hadn’t seen him since our siblings graduated high school in May. It was cool to see him again. I was at Rock Bottom Brewery with friends from work, since it was Kim’s birthday. Luke Rederus was also there. I hadn’t seen him since we graduated high school in 2000. Luke’s hot roomate, Basil was there along with Erik Solan, who I see every now and then on campus but generally try to avoid.

Luke asked if I was at the restraunt with family. When I replied that I wasn’t, it seemed as if everyone’s faces kind of dropped. Why would I be with people that were not my age if it wasn’t family? It didn’t seem to make sense to them, even when I explained that it was a coworker’s birthday so hence, not everyone will be my friend but the birthday girl’s friends. From there, things just got awkward. I tried to change the subject and ask how Luke Rederus had been, as I hadn’t seen him for three years, but to no avail. Answers were short.

I’ve probably overanalyzed the situation. Most likely no one knew what to say, but didn’t think anything of it at all. Still, I have to wonder at times what people really think.