Worus

The term paper is in its second draft. Now, I have to take it to my professor to discuss. Unfortunately, after completing the 150 pages of reading that my professor sort of forced me to complete, I have yet to study for my physics exam! I was ignoring the reading to finish papers and study for programming languages. However, on Wednesday, he said to be sure and have all of the reading done for tomorrow because he would call on everyone as no one was participating that day.

I feel good about the paper. It’s fairly well organized, and I’ve really done well on my research. I think I’ve gone above and beyond the amount of literary research necessary. There are sticky notes everywhere in my books. Approximately one every ten pages in two of my sources. However, all of my sources are literary, there are no sources to help me out with my analysis, so I’d best be right or I may freak out tomorrow night.

After class tomorrow, I will finish the final draft of the paper, minus the things that we all think of when we are about ready to turn a paper in, and I will hopefully get some time to work on studying for physics! This test proves to be the hardest one, and my tutor has confirmed that electromagnetism is the hardest part of the course. I’m honestly very scared.

I’m kind of in limbo with respect to feelings right now. On one hand, I feel extremely stressed. On the other hand, I can sort of see how the week is going to play out, and that everything will be okay. In the back of my head, I know that everything will, indeed, be alright, as long as I just put forth effort like I always do. Still, I feel stressed.

Class was alright today. Notthat hing exciting happened. I read almost all of Women Are Not Roses by Ana Castillo during physics. It was a collection of short poems of hers. When I finished I thought to myself, “Great, this had nothing I can use for my term paper in it.” Then I realized that most of the book has a focus on sex and women’s expression of sexuality, so I can use that for my paper. I think I can relate it back to So Far From God, which would be good. Then I would have a more clear-cut thesis statement.

The only thing is that I may end up talking about more of her lesbian issues than I previously thought. I really wanted to talk about religious issues when I chose the topic (I had no idea lesbian issues even existed), but I have to go where my research takes me, since I’m running out of time quickly.

I finally heard back from Luke about studying, too. That eased some of the stress because I know that I’ll have someone knowledgable there to answer the things that I don’t understand. If nothing else, I’ll have other people there to work through my issues with me. I’m nervous and not about this exam all at once. I guess I just don’t know what to expect.

I find myself incredibly tired this week. Last night I had to come home because I was falling asleep in my book. At the moment I’m already yawning at six ‘o-clock in the evening! I ate, and that tends to help, but it’s been a while and I’m wondering if that’s not going to do the trick tonight. God, I hope so, because I anticipate being awake until one or two in the morning. I’m getting tired just thinking about it.